~11pm August 21, 2022
There’s so much to live for, yet I haven’t came across the reason for mine. I don’t want to be afraid but I also don’t want to give my power away by letting anyone in, and also anything. I’m teetering on the edge of existing, going through the motions, not really being here, not wanting to be, too scared to try. What do I do? What I am supposed to do? I’m an adult now, just more time for more shift. How can I calmly accept this? I cannot. I’m above this, the reality I trap myself in? But I feel trapped, I am a prisoner, of my actions? or is the world not the reflection of your reality? To be lost in myself. But still enjoying it, yet also wanting
