Sunday March 18th, 2020 10:51
I’ve gotten what I wanted : to always be alone, I have no friends here, unlike I try, these people aren’t a part of my tribe, I’m not open enough yet, a few weeks ago I would feel something physical but now I think about it, I was in the process of opening up and now I’ve failed and sleep and eat all day, I remember this, for my own protection, from what? Now? From others? This covid19 going around people are in a panic, no toilet paper anywhere. I’ve now assumed all boys lie. Gonna wait for my athletic or outdoorsy vegan hottie punk guy/girl? I’ve never experienced a girl so maybe! So many people have a hard time grasping what veganism is. At work it’s brought up a lot because I’m there, they’d jokingly say “wanna try…” followed by something clearly not vegan; ribs , burger, steak, etc. The other day I thought about: being vegan is knowing/realizing there’s something much bigger than you, yet you can do what you can knowing you lessened the impact. It’s entirely selfless. I won’t eat that knowing any living thing was harmed to get it to my mouth, same for non free trade or slave labor, your dollar is your vote, care for all.
